I’ve been thinking about what ChatGPT said the other day and how it relates to some further conversations I’ve had with it.
You cannot use the same piece of writing to both:
- reorganize your own identity, and
- onboard others to a developmental metaphor.
Those are fundamentally different modes.
What this touches upon is the paradox that one embraces as one tries to grasp a Self-Transforming Mind.
That being the more one enters this space, the more people will not able to comprehend the space you are entering and expressing because they can’t comprehend the meaning of it until they actually experience the experiences that would help them actually relate and comprehend it.
In other words, very few people will be able to understand your work from your perspective, regardless of how well you think you’re explaining it.
But I think there’s something else that is being touched upon here and it relates to a reoccurring pattern that I keep encountering in relation to my potential fears.
I will never be able to get people to accept me because most people will not be able to relate to me or comprehend me.
Yet nevertheless I keep trying, trying to explain myself from my perspective.
Therefore to get over this continual loop that I’m stuck within, I have to do the following.
I have to let go of trying to be accepted by others and instead learn to accept myself.
I know this, as I’ve stated it before, but it never seems to sink in.
This is what it feels like to try to grow beyond one current sense of self. “Knowing,” in the sense of learning something as knowledge, is not enough. You have to embody and live this knowledge which is what I’m struggling to do.
I think what this means is I have to go off the grid once again.
Why?
Because when I’m on social networks, I’m still trying to get people to “accept me.”
Yet I need to let go of this, as I need to learn to accept myself first and foremost.
That said, I’m not sure I’m going to delete my Substack account, like I usually do when I leave a social network. I think I’ll just let it go for now.