The most difficult thing you can do in vertical development is to hold space for yourself because your most immediate desire is to get to and arrive at your “destination” of a larger sense of Self. Because in doing so, you believe you will get a sense of closure from it and be able to stabilize your “self” again.
Yet to truly grow, you need to hold the door open for your Self and not close it prematurely.
Even more so, at the latter stages, you’ll realize that there is no closure possible in the traditional sense. It’s about remaining open to the ambiguous uncertainty of life, letting it flow continually.
This is like learning to build bridges most of your life to cross many rivers of change.
Eventually though, you realize you need to step into the river, let go, and flow with it.
When you do, you realize that all the rivers flow into a larger ocean of you.