Something feels wrong.
I think what I’m being asked to do by life is to completely let go of my “self” and embody something larger than myself. So it’s about completely letting go of the usual role I play (and currently feel stuck within), that being just trying to explainthings to others which requires a massive amount of scaffolded knowledge to do so.
Instead I’m effectively being asked to jump off a cliff of embodiment and trust that life will guide and carry me, expressing something through me.
The best way I could explain this is using a quote from the trailer for the Amazon Prime Secret Level tv series…
How many lives would you give…
…just to discover what you’re capable of?
…which mirrors this other quote by a notable author.
You have to die a few times before you can really live.
Charles Bukowski
And it also mirrors something I said a long time ago.
I’m dying to feel alive.