Category: General

The following shows some of the world view and paradigm differences between an MMO game world and the real world.

Game World

Purpose – Usually before we even begin to start interacting within the game world, we are told the overall purpose of our need within it, usually in the form of some global crisis (i.e. an evil is spreading and it needs to be stopped).

Role – While you may look at a list of classes, you’re usually determining what type of role you want to have within the world first (i.e. tank, dps, healer).

Class – Once you’ve clarified your role, you usually decide upon a specific class that fits your play style (i.e. tanks can be warriors, paladins, etc).

Notice that the above approach is top down in nature and assumes at least a general sense of global awareness from the very start. We see the challenging purpose before us and then we decide how to “heroicly” overcome it through our role and class.

Real World

Class – Usually once we reach a certain age, we’re told we need to figure out “what we want to be” and sometimes we’re given some aptitude tests to help us figure out our optimal class or “job” in life.

Role – After living a while and having gone through a variety of jobs (classes) in life, we may start seeing a pattern within our lives that there is an optimal role for us to fulfill within the world which can sometimes be figured out through behavioural means (i.e. personality profiles) or metaphysical means (i.e. astrology, numerology, etc).

Purpose – After living almost our entire lives (and sometimes not even then), we may finally see the greater purpose needed within the world around us.

Notice the above approach is bottom up in nature with almost next to no awareness at the start and sometimes almost no full awareness at the end. Even more so, due to not knowing our real role and often picking the wrong class numerous times, we don’t feel very heroicly able to tackle such a large and challenging purpose, even if it is clearly presented before us (i.e. I’m just one person. What can I do?).

I’m simply stunned. I just discovered Peter Michaud’s website and after reading a handful of essays on it, I feel like I’ve met a kindred spirit on a similar journey in life. To start off, his About page describes a sensation that he feels that is almost exactly like a sensation that I feel myself, yet I’ve never ever told anyone about it except maybe my mother and my wife.

I have this pressure in my chest that feels like a fire fighting to get out. It claws up my arms, forcing me to embrace whatever comes, and to love it all the while. It climbs up my throat, and makes me think, and learn, and grow. I feel its heat through my body, and I have no choice but to spread it.

To me, this “fire” in my chest is my creative energy which defines who I uniquely am through the act of creation. Whenever I’m unable to do authentic creative work for whatever reason, I find this creative energy builds up within me until it reaches almost a boiling point. And there have been times when I’ve literally stretched my arms out and head back to try to release this creative energy in a deep emotional blast from my solar plexus, as I visualize this flaming pillar of golden yellowish energy bursting forth from my chest and up towards the heavens. If I could visually show what I’m feeling, it would probably relate closely to what is seen within the final scene of The Fifth Element movie.

But the similarities don’t end there. Like Peter, my passion at its basic core is helping people to become truly authentic individuals which in turn means helping them to express their authentic selves creatively in some way. The difficulty that I’m having right now though is how to clearly express this in words to people because it might seem quite foreign to them, particularly within the materialistic economy-focused world we live in. How I’ve tried to bridge the gap and communicate on a level that people can understand is by using terminology similar to professionals in design, particularly systems design (or ecosystems). And in a sense, that’s really what I’m trying to do, I’m trying to restore or heal the imbalances within a complex system that is out of balance, so that it begins running more efficiently and naturally again.

I think this is why my “Be Real Creative” and “Connect. Empower. Inspire.” mantras are so important to me because they relate directly with this need to help people be more authentic. But what I’ve realized is that before you can truly help other people, you need to truly help yourself first. And that’s what this journal is all about. In effect, it’s a daily reminder to help myself reveal and retain who I truly am deep down inside. Or put another way, I want it to be my place where I can fall back to when life gets too tough and I need to rest and rejuvenate in reflective thought.

That said though, like Peter, I still have this greater desire or purpose that is burning within me and it needs to be released and fulfilled. All I know at this point in time is glimpses of something I’m not quite sure I understand yet. It’s almost like a new way of living that effects all avenues of life (i.e. living, playing, learning, working) and that makes the most sense to me for one very important reason. Life itself is a complex system on a variety of levels. Often times, we think we can change our lives by just changing one aspect of it. Yet often that doesn’t work because we don’t live within a perfect closed system but within a connected environment. Thus if we want to truly change our lives, we need to look at not just one aspect of it but it as a whole which often requires a new outlook or perspective, similar to a paradigm shift. Once that occurs, then your attitude and outlook are completely changed, thus allowing you to change all aspects of your life as a whole in unison and in harmony.

Have you ever been in a situation where someone around you is so upset that their time is being wasted that they blurt out “Come on! Come on! Let’s go!” If you’re a gamer, this might happen within a raid or pick up group experience. If you’re out shopping, it might be someone behind you in a checkout line. If you’re at work, it might be someone in a boardroom with you who doesn’t want to be at the meeting.

The hilarious thing I find in most of these situations is that our lives are often too fast paced as it is already. Actually they’re going so fast sometimes that it becomes an auto-pilot blur to the point that we no longer are aware of what’s going on around us. But you might say, at least we’re still going, still flowing.

Ya, we are. But the important question we need to ask ourselves is this. Are we going and flowing in the right direction? The only way you can seriously ever know this for sure is if you turn off your auto-pilot, get off the track, and take a pit stop. Even then you need to walk away from the distraction of the track, think seriously where you’ve been and where you’re going.

Then and only then will you truly know if everything you’ve furiously been doing for the past while is actually leading you somewhere you want to go or actually taking you farther away. If it’s been taking you farther away, well then it looks like all of that furious fast-paced time saving has actually wasted quite a bit of your time.

I’m starting to see game developers wondering how they can add symbiotic gameplay to their games. While I’ll try to elaborate later in more detail on how to create a symbiotic environment within your social groups, I think it’s critically important to realize how democracy actually counteracts a symbiotic environment. The reason for this should hopefully be obvious.

Symbiotic groups excel in their ability to deal with rapid change or crisis because they act innately without very little communication between them. In effect, when something happens, they automatically know what to do as a group, so they just do it.

In a democratic group though, even though there is no centralized command and control to slow it down, the process of everyone voicing their individual concerns and suggestions can effectively kill any chance of rapid response because, more often than not, people end up arguing about what should be done (and hopefully this in itself is a great hint as to how symbiotic groups work more effectively).

I think another huge difference between a “typical” democratic group of today and a symbiotic group is that individuals within symbiotic groups don’t need to ask for permission from their greater group or community before they engage something. In effect, if they see something that will affect them and the greater group, they immediately engage it but also relay awareness of the situation to others. This awareness is the lifeblood of a symbiotic group because it determines the decision for self-engagement from each individual within the group without them being ordered to do so.

I’ve got a copy of the Tao Te Ching called The Tao of Power that I’ve had for many many years. And like the other books I’ve got on my shelf, it seems to be an endless resource point for self-learning. In effect, I can read a book once, put it back, and then pick it up months or even years later and learn something completely new. I love having books like that.

What I noticed in reading the book lately though was how closely it relates to this “thing” that I’ve been exploring and pursuing for so long. In effect, something related to social systems design or a natural way of life. One thing in particular, in my last reading, really jumped out at me though and I’m surprised that I didn’t notice it before (or maybe I read it but forgot about it): attitude. Here’s an excellent quote from the opening chapters of the book that explain who Lao Tzu was, what he was trying to teach within the Tao Te Ching, and how it relates to attitude.

Use attitude instead of action, and lead others by guiding rather than ruling. Manage people by letting them act on you, and not the other way around. In this way, your subjects will develop a sense of self-government, and you, as their guide, will be rewarded with their loyalty and cooperation.

What I found interesting about this statement is how attitude seems to be so critical to an effective team as a whole and not just its leader. In effect, if everyone on your team doesn’t have the right attitude then often times it doesn’t “flow” very well. Yet when everyone has the right attitude, there seems to be this thriving hive of activity and things just naturally happen without very much effort.

This directly relates to my experiences within video game clans in the past. I never ever recruited people based upon skill alone. If anything I realized, knowledge could easily be learned, particularly within the right fertile learning environment (i.e. veterans always working alongside newbies). What was important for the long lasting success and sustainability of the group though was a person’s attitude. For example, someone could be incredibly skillful, yet if they didn’t have the right attitude, they often didn’t gel with the team very well, thus causing blockages or friction within the group.

More specifically though, I discovered one critical component of this right attitude, while reading an offhand comment by an MMO blogger recently. He mentioned something about some of the best gamers within MMO games and in guilds / clans are those who are constantly thinking about how to improve their characters and themselves. When he said that, I immediately knew what he was talking about: care. In effect, if you don’t have the right caring attitude to even care about yourself then, more often than not, you’re not going to care about others in turn. Yet if you do care about yourself, then there seems to be this constant desire for self-learning and, in turn, a caring for others around you to the point that you desire to see them empowered as well.

The same applies to business environments I’ve been within. I’ve seen people with not much skill but a boundless desire to improve themselves and these people are an incredible asset to the company because you know when they do acquire that skill (which they usually do rather quickly), they usually go on to do amazing things within the company, helping others in turn. Yet on the opposite side of the spectrum, you sometimes see people who just sit around, with little care for self-improvement, and thus often little care for helping those around them. Again the right caring attitude seems to make all the difference in the effectiveness of social groups.

Before I went to sleep last night I realized something very interesting. I seem to excel (or be more optimized) in “working” environments where I have the ability to relay my acquired veteran knowledge of the system that the team or organization is immersed within.

Even more so, it’s imperative that I be able to do this in a “face to face” manner, in the “physical” presence of others. In effect, the sharing of knowledge has to be done side by side, while both myself and the other person (or people) are working on the same thing, thus allowing both of us to learn from the actions of the other. I experienced this sort of thing both within video game clans (i.e. Quake CTF, Counter-Strike) and within a business environment (i.e. FirstWeb). In both environments, I almost seemed to be like a core hub for the group, in that I was like a resource point or wellspring for others.

Another thing that I realized from this is that my journal is truly about self-learning, more than anything else. In effect, if I write a post that doesn’t at least contain one small piece of self-learning and self-realization within it (i.e. I’m just relaying existing knowledge, nothing new to me) then I seem to falter and go off track. Yet when I’m continually relaying things about self-improvement or self-learning for myself, then I seem to be able to talk till the cows come home.

What interesting in reading the above is that in both aspects I’m sharing knowledge and teaching. But the key thing seems to be that for me to share knowledge that I already know, it has to be within an active immersive environment with others around me in close proximity (i.e. within an office, within a game environment with avatars), so that those others can effectively learn by watching.

From an analytical right brain perspective, what I’m exploring often relates to the thinking, design, and maintenance of optimized complex systems, such as hardware, software, communities, organizations, and ecosystems. From a more holistic and intuitive left brain perspective, I’m simply exploring a more natural and flowing way of life.

It’s imperative to understand though that I didn’t create this design thinking or way of life, I just observed its existing patterns hidden within my years of reading and research. If anything, many people have already communicated these natural design patterns throughout the ages but often times from such a limited perspective that it’s often lost within just their area of expertise, rather than being understood by the average person.

So really more than anything, I’m just the messenger or translator of what’s already been out there. My purpose, above all else, is to try to communicate this knowledge in a simple way that hopefully everyone, no matter their background or work life, can understand. More than anything though, my hope is that even if a person doesn’t fully understand what I’m saying, there is still something within it that feels right to them, even if they themselves can’t explain it. This, if anything, is how I’ve made most of my discoveries over the years, in that I never disregarded something if intuitively it felt important or right to me, even if I couldn’t understand why at that point in time.

Ok, this isn’t working. I need to define some things here before I can start this “journey” in honest. Otherwise, I’m just going to get “lost in the woods” again and end up backtracking to where I started again. Already I see this happening, so I need to wipe the slate clean, start over, but bear the following things in mind using the “hate something, making something better” approach.

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I hate just writing about stuff that I know. In effect, if I only write about what I already know and what I’ve already realized then this journal is going to be extremely ineffective to me, almost to the point of being useless. The reason for this is that there is often a chaotic mixture of thoughts in my head, leading up to a discovery, and a journal is the perfect place to jot down all of these thoughts, in a variety of forms and structures, so I can keep track of where I’m trying to “trail break”.

The problem with this approach though, of course, is that most of what I write is probably not going to make much sense to a lot of people. So the question is do I have a public journal at all or just a private one. And yet, during my adventures of exploration, I come across things that connect with the exploration of others. So in that sense, sharing these thoughts seems like the right thing to do. In effect, in doing so, it makes me feel like I’m an explorer, delving into the unknown and leaving trail markers and notes behind for those who are also exploring on the edge like myself.

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I hate sounding like an all superior know-it-all. It’s because if I’ve learnt anything in my past explorations, at the point you start thinking you know it all, that’s the point you start closing your mind off to the world and stop seeing other amazing things to explore. In effect, it’s the point you start losing your awareness. So sure there is nothing wrong with me being a teacher or guide, sharing my information with others, but, more than anything, I need to continually be a humble student of life, always actively open to new experiences and discoveries that may present themselves daily, if not hourly.

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I hate criticizing other people. The reason for this is pretty obvious. It’s because it’s so easy to criticize or to destroy someone else’s words or thoughts. To create though, that’s difficult. Therefore, when I read or hear something that I’d like to criticize or break apart, I need to instead look at it as an opportunity to connect with that person, fully understanding what they were trying to do, and then create an alternative approach instead.

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I hate writing from a limited perspective. A lot of what I’m exploring applies to many aspects and areas of life. Therefore, the more specific I am in my writing from a certain perspective, the less useful what I’m writing is to certain people, because they may not see how it applies to them. For example, if I talk about something and explain how it relates to game design, I immediately risk making it unrelatable to people within business organizational design, even though the basic principles apply to both, plus other areas of life as well. So to avoid this, my greatest challenge is going to have to be write in such a way that it connects and relates to many diverse perspectives at once.

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I hate making myself look like an obsessed nut case. While it’s very important for me to keep focused and relay what I’m passionate about, it’s also critically important for me to relay who I am as a whole person. Simply put, if I focus too much on my passion, I’ll seem like an obsessed nut case who can’t chill out, disconnect, and enjoy real life. In reality, I have a lot of other interests and loves like nature, animals, the outdoors, hiking, biking, drawing, composing music, photography, cooking, dining, online video games, and more. It’s important for me to relay these things, primarily because that are bridges to help people relate to me which in turn can lead to a possible connection or relationship in the future.

My journal will still be inactive for a while yet but I’ll probably reopen it at a later date. You can read more about this in the News section of my site which will relay updates relating to my web design work in future.

This journal is now inactive but will remain on my site for archival purposes.

In closing, I’d just like say that sometimes to have the curiousity to discover new things, we need to have the courage to let go of other things.