I’m noticing something interesting.
The more I try to plan and structure things out, the more my ego gets in the way.
But if I’m doing things in the spur of the moment, more improvisational if you will, it’s like my ego doesn’t have the time to react and get in the way.
I may experiment with this.
For example, I primarily write to express myself.
Well, what if I just start recording videos of myself talking about my life’s work with no script or outline?
Would the improvisational nature of it help me to just let go and let my larger sense of Self to emerge?
BTW I’ve noticed the same thing with my writing in the past. When I get into a flow because I want to express something that I feel passionate about, my ego usually completely disappears. But as soon as that flow fizzles out or I begin to reflect on what I’ve written so far and it doesn’t feel like I’m articulating what I want to say properly, my ego creeps in and I will often not publish my post, even though I may have spent a few hours writing it. I think this is why I like the short form nature of Twitter, yet at the same time I want to be able to string together a series of short form posts to express something longer.