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Holding the Not Knowning of What Has Yet to Fully Emerge

I mentioned before that I was getting some good feedback from people on Substack in terms of me restacking their notes with my own insights added to them.

I just realized something about that though that resonated with something that happened while I was previously in Dave Gray’s School of Possible as well.

Basically in both instances, I had people approaching me and wanting to know more about my work, yet I couldn’t fully articulate it back then, nor can I fully articulate it now (although I can much more so than previously).

Yet here’s the things I’m realizing.

The interaction with people back then and now is what is helping me to articulate my work at a larger scale.

But you see the catch-22 here, right?

Someone gets excited about my work, based upon an interaction we had, and they then naturally want to learn more about it.

But I can’t articulate it as a whole.

This is basically why I left the School of the Possible because I was frustrated at the situation and the position I was put in…of not fully knowing what is emerging from me because it hasn’t fully emerged yet.

And this is basically why I want to leave Substack now as well (although there are other factors I mentioned as well).

But here’s the thing though. No matter where I go, if I interact with others, this is going to happen again.

So what do I do?

Just avoid interacting with others until I figure it out on my own?

Yet the very interaction is what helps me to figure it out in a more catalytic, expedient way.

I don’t know.

All I do know is this.

It embodies the cognitive dissonance that one tries to resolve as quickly as possible in a growth experience but often can’t.

So you have to hold space for yourself and just sit immersed in the moment, marinating in it as it were, as a heat moment.

At the same time, it embodies the very thing I’m trying to articulate as a whole.

That being the experience that one encounters when their life starts becoming a true adventure.

So there’s no preplanning or choosing a known route. You’re figuring it out in the moment, as the unknown emerges and becomes known right in front of you.

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