Things are always messy at the start…especially when it’s the start of a new sense of Self.
Everything is shattered, without form. So when one finds landmarks to begin to determines one’s bearings, one holds onto them for dear life.
But one must continue exploring and navigating one’s sense of self fully. Those few landmarks help, perhaps becoming the cornerstone of one’s larger Self and world that is emerging, but they are not enough in themselves.
Things need to get messier, as one wanders aimlessly exploring and navigating further, before they make sense and take shape as a newer mapped continent upon the Ocean of You.